I loved you. I never lied about that.
I loved you. I never planned for it to happen
I loved you. I did
I loved you. I have to leave you now.
I loved you. I was hurt in love by love by you
I loved you. My heart never warned me that it could be this
way. It could be that way
I loved you. I did every thing that I could waiting, hoping,
aiming, listening for you to love me back
I loved you. My ears heard things that you didn’t say
I loved you. My eyes saw things that you did not project for
me to see
I loved you. My arms wrapped around you in a hug and I
thought I had arrived. But had I?
I loved you. My chest heaved when your finally embraced me,
the way I hoped you would
I loved you. My legs buckled. My knees grew weak. I guess
that is why they call it falling in love
I loved you. My toes curled in the wet dream with you
I loved you. My life was opened up in-front of you. Laid
bare. Vulnerable, exposed. You took my life and not my love.
I loved you. Even when you never cared about you
I loved you. Even when everyone told me there is no chance
with you
I loved you. Even when my best friend told me you are using
me as an ego trip for your low esteem
I loved you. Even when you hurt me and took yourself away
from me in the name of meditation and thinking through things.
I loved you. Even when you said you do not know how to love
I loved you. Even after you said you were scared of being
loved that way by any person on earth
I loved you. Even after the insults of alcohol-induced
fights
I loved you.
I have to leave you now. I have to save myself.
I re-learn to love me.
And when you finally love me like I loved you, maybe I will
be (t)here.
Maybe.
I loved you.
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