Love and Scars - A battle

Maybe there is a reason to slow down when dating

How do you do that when you brain gets ahead of you?

When you heart sends signals of hope

And the gut keeps saying slow down?

What do you do then? 

I don’t know how to take things slow. 

I am either all in or nothing at all

When do you know you are loved the way you deserve to be loved?

or at least, 

Believing in the potential that you shall be loved the way you deserve to be loved?
When do the butterflies in the stomach stop fluttering?

At the mention of a name 

At the sight of pictures 

At the whiff of aroma, fragrances anywhere

At the thought of the warm body next to yours

At the memory of a kiss....

When will your gut settle?   

Does it ever?
Is this what love feels like? 

If it is, 

I want more. 

Everything. 

Every day! 

The ghosts of the past reappear

Scars get itchy

Scabs demand attention

They feel forgotten, abandoned. 

Alone. 

For a long time, they were all I had. 

With new love, they congregate

Whispering warnings. 

Pointing perceived danger signs

Red flags – 

- or so they think.