What is Heartbreak?

I keep coming back to this space. 

To this place. 

Longing.
Yearning. 

To be fought for. 

To be earned. 

My language of love is giving. Service. Generosity. 

No lengths I will not go to, to give. Provide. Share. Embrace. 

Perhaps a misguided level of vulnerability. 

Unrequited.


I want to be loved to the core. 

I want to be imbued with your essence. 

Everything that you have and everything that you are.

I want not just a physical attraction.
I demand spiritual, emotional, psychological connection.
I want to feel your breath in the very core of me.
I want to feel your touch in my blood.
I want to be loved wholesomely.
The good, the bad, the ugly, the unthinkable.

I want to be earned.
Fight for me in the manner that fire consumes dry wood. 

Fight for me with purpose. 

Fight for my/our desires.
Fight for our aspirations. Our purpose. 

Fight for our togetherness and connectedness. 

Earn me. 

Because I am worthy.
Not just of you. 

I am worthy of me.
I am worthy of being earned. 

I have value.
For you, for me and for us. 

When you fight for me, you demonstrate to me that I am valuable.
Being by your side means every thing.
You see, feel, smell, touch the intrinsic value of my beingness.

Or else my heart will break

Heartbreak is not just a separation.
Heartbreak isn’t just ‘breaking up’ of promises, dreams and aspirations.

Heartbreak is love “unfought for!”

Heartbreak is not being fought for. Impliedly saying to me, I am not worthy. Valuable.
Heartbreak is disappointment
Heartbreak is zero returns on a very high investment.
Heartbreak is picking up the pieces, piecing them back together. As best as you can
Heartbreak is knowing your value. And knowing, it wasn't fought for!